Final Words To you

If you're reading this then you aren't so dumb after all!!!! I always knew you weren't dumb so just ignore that, basically, I am blocked by you at the very moment. I assume that I'll never talk to you again. I know I called you these things and also told you to kill yourself... which I hope you didn't do. You see, I've never managed to get over you. It's just annoying always being the one left over and forgotten when things are over. It was never supposed to end like this and for what it's worth, I still forgive you for everything. I just still don't understand at all why you had to lie about who you were to me. It didn't make any sense because I told you I didn't care if you were this person or not. Josephine, if that's even your real name... I still love you and I haven't gotten over you yet. I've been in and out of my mind constantly, replaying the memories and trying to figure out where it all went wrong. I deleted all of our messages to try and get over you but it just left me empty. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I've never been this in love and it scared me to lose you which I did. I'm so tired of love at the moment and honestly, I don't want it ever again if it isn't you. We talk and we say these things and you told me not to give up but I just can't picture anyone else. Also, I don't want to get to know anyone else. I just want you back in my life. I don't care how. You changed a lot though, within these past conversations we had before you blocked me, you didn't make me feel human at all. You just changed and I didn't know why and I still don't. Joey, if this link is still in my bio after all this time then I still love you and I want you to text me, I want you to do it somehow. I am forever waiting for it. You're the only person who can get into this note. I love you so much but I also don't want to chase you that hard anymore. It isn't good for my mental health at all so, this will be the final means of contact. Text me if you want to talk, but I'm no longer gonna try and contact you after you've blocked me. I hope you do text me eventually. I love you and I'm sorry. If you're reading this a few months later, I have a spotify playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/72Z32hyOyEqu0XTX7lu6TX?si=d9d20f4490de4c33 If it's still being updated regularly and it has our photo then you know that I'm still waiting for you.