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7/20/2023 11:18pm Ever since I came back from camp in June I dropped my phone and the screen shattered. My mother is making me pay for it and I can't even have a job right now, I'm only 13. The screen costs $300, and I've only got $151 and a bunch of coins. Right now I feel absolutely horrible cause my birthday is in less than 3 days, normally my friends text me or post on their story to tell me Happy Birthday. I don't have my Snapchat password so I made a new account, but I only have Maddie, Dad, and Gavin. I really hope I don't loss friends, I didn't have very many anyways, not that they care about me. I just really hope that when I get the chance to talk to them I will tell them what happened and hopefully be able to forgive me. I don't want them to be thinking that I just randomly started ghosting them for months. I'll be a freshman this year and I'm really scared cause I feel like I won't pass. I need to be better with how I treat myself and I need to get used to doing homework everyday otherwise I'll be way behind. I don't want to take any risks getting held back. I applied for a job at the boys and girls club, a daycare. I really feel like my life is getting worse and worse. I have a feeling that I'm going crazy or even insane. I haven't seen my therapist since maybe February. I also haven't been taking my pills since the day I came back from camp. Mom expects more out of me, I do my best, I try my hardest to get through life, I bet I even have it worse than her. I don't have enough money for anything, I have to save it all up, I should be looking at things at stores otherwise Maddie or someone else would get it. People shouldn't be wasting money on me. I struggle to pay them back, cause since I have to save my money to pay for my phone.