15.07.2023

haha aaj pata hai kya hua? like such a big idiot i am i have realised, im really not a good friend afterall. meri aaj charvi se ladayi hui because of aksh and aksh se ladai hui because of?? just because i give fair answers that doesnt mean im lying or making him feel good or mujhe chize nahi smjh aati. mujhe bi pata h kya sahi lagra h and kya nahi still just to make him feel good, i give compliments jis mein im so bad! and like uske baad kya hota h? ek din he tells me smth, i joke about smth else and he takes it on his fashion sense jabki us baare mein meine bolna shuru bhi nahi kiya tha abhi? i say whatevs on my mind. if he looks bad mein muh pr boldungi bhai, ik sentiments hurt hote h but yk that is what friends are for. idk if he really considers me as a friend or only someone he met online because of his ex? like damnnn. but like theek hai whatever, those msgs that he wrote ki mujhe toh sab sahi lagega bec im a kid? achaa? haan toh fir if im a kid, shuru mein kyu bola ur so mature! tu smjhri h what im saying. vo sab bolne ka fayda kya tha i mean. it kind of is hurting me rn? and noww msg aaya "baad mein baat krte h" okay bhai kya hi bolu ki no no u look ugly im sorry? ye bolu kya bhai? tbh i feel really comfortable in telling him whatever it is. even password dene mein koi dikkat nahi h ab, but like ab iske baad feeling aari h he's judging me for all whatever i do. bhai haan hu mein 7th mein. pehle pata tha na? kyu baat kri ek mahina mat krte, mein toh pehle bhi aisi thi ab bhi aisi hu. mtlb bhai atleast im mature than those idiotic pick me girls jo flirt krti rhti h pura time. haha ik ye aise point pr nahi bolna chahiye but like.. whos gonna read all this afterall? thats it mysaaa<3