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Mere father ki death dec 2021 me ho gayi wo akele person the jo kamate the, unke jaane ke baad ab hum teen log hai lekin mera graduation toh ho gaya hai par abhi bhi mujhe english likhne or bolne me problem hoti hai saath hi mera maths weak hai or mai padhai me bhi average hu toh mujhe job kaise milega, mai mummy or bhai jo ki humse chota hai humlog ko bhut sari problems ka saamna karna padd rha hai, aese me suicide ka khayal na aaye aesa kaise ho sakta hai, humlog rent ke makan me rehte hai jahan mere father ne rent payment ko leke kabhi shi se baat kiya nhi or humlog ko 6100? rent dena padd rha jaisa yeh ghar hai ish ghar ka koi 3000 v nhi dena chahega, kaise rent pay kar rhe wo humlog hi jante hai, family me aur v members hai pr unka bhi koi support nhi mila hai abhi tak humlog ko aese me kaise jindagi jiya jaye atleast humlog kisi aese ghar me rehte jahan hame itna rent bhi nhi lgta or humhara official work v hota rehta mere father ka permanent address dushre jagah hai or jahan humlog rent pr reh rhe hai ush jagah unka office tha, abhi tak humlog ko PF pension bhi nhi mila hai humlog ka paper main office tak jaa hi nhi paya hai, ek new account open karna hai pr yahan ka address aadhar pr nhi hone ke karan account open hone me v dikkat ho rha hai aadhar pr permanent address hai or kuch mahine baad hame permanent address par hi jana hoga, pr jab tak humlog ka kaam nhi ho jata tab tak hame isi jagah rehna hoga hum kahin aur rent pr hi shi rehne ke liye koi aur jagah jahan se atleast office najdik ho. Toh kya aap hamari madad kar sakte hai?(1) telnimac 40 dytor 10 plus ek saath khaya jaye toh kya hoga (2) Bhut hurt kr chuke hai hum ushko ab aur nhi karna chahte hai isiliye marna chahte hai. Abhishek ko v meri tarah lgta hai ki hum ushke layak nhi isiliye wo kisi ko v hamare baare me nhi bata rha or hum usko yahi bol rhe karne ki kam se kam apne dosto ko batao hamare baare me Hum ushke pyar ke sahare zindagi bita lete pr physical hone ke baad nhi or hum ushko kisi aur ke saath nhi dekh sakte. Agar physical nhi v hue hote toh v zindagi jina asan hota mere liye hum tb v kisi aur ke saath shaadi nhi krte pr physical hone ke baad wo humko chor dega apnayega hi nhi toh kaise jiye. Hum nhi ji payenge ushke bina. Ek toh papa ke jaane ke baad ushme humko apne father figure dikhta hai isiliye hum nhi chahte hai usko khona Ab mujhe aesa lgta hai ki meri shaadi usse hogi nhi or mai ushke bina reh sakti nhi isiliye mai apni jaan le rhi hu. Meri wajah se Abhishek ne bhut kuch saha hai jo ki mai ab nhi chahti ki wo sahe. Bhagwan se yahi prathna hai ki meri jaisi beti kisi ko na mile. Hum bhut dukh de chuke sabko ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dena aap sabhi log ?? Na toh mai ek achi insaan hu na achi beti behan or na dost. I am useless i am good for nothing and i can't do anything in my life.(3) Mujhe maaf kar dena mummy or bhai mai itna bada kadam uthane jaa rhi mujhse bhut badi galti ho gayi ho sake toh mujhe maaf kr dena. Aaplogo ne bhut kuch kiya hai mere liye ushke liye dil se thank you khaskar mummy aapne sabse jyada kiya hai mere liye ya kahu toh meri harkaton se bhut saha hai. Sorry mai hi kuch nhi kar payi aaplog ke liye ishka malal toh ab leke jaa rhi apne saath. Office wale or dadi pariwar wale toh hai hi ek reason pr meri maut ka jimmedar me khud ko bhi manti hu. Mai Abhishek se bhut pyar krti hu. Mai nhi reh sakti ushke bina or na rehna chahti hu. Pr mai khud ko ushke layak v nhi samajti. Na hi mujhe ghar ke koi kaam aate hai dhang se or na hi mai uski kisi v tarah se koi v help kr pati hu. Humlog dav me saath me toh the pr hamari school time me kabhi baat nhi hui. After 2015 yani school ke baad jab maine 2017 me insta join kiya tb hamari baatein suru hui. Ushne apna whatsapp no. Diya or kaha ki agar tum comfortable ho toh humlog whatsapp pr baat kar sakte hai. Hum bole ushko whatsapp pr msg krke ki humko tumpr vishwash hai tum ladki ke no. Ka misuse nhi karoge isiliye de rhe. Dheere dheere rojana baat hone lgi mera phela male friend bana. Lekin jab mummy ko bataye or ek din unhi ke samne usse call pr baat kiye toh mummy bolne lgi bharosha kiye the tumpr humko bhut kharab lga hum toh baat karna band kr diye the usse pr phir ushi ne roka mujhe. Bhut baar toh ushne mere gusse ko jhela tha pr humko kabhi apne life se door nhi hone diya. Phir najane kab hum ushko pasand krne lge or phir ek din pyar v ho gaya. Mere father ki death 03-12-2021 ko hui uhske baad mai emotionally breakdown ho gayi thi ush waqt Abhishek ne mera bhut support kiya dheere dheere mai apne father figure ushke nature behaviour me dekh paa rhi thi jishki wajah se Mai ushke karib ho gayi. Hamari aese v rojana baat hoti hi thi whatsapp pr meri mummy ke mana krne ke baad bhi hum usse baat kiya krte the pr kabhi mile nhi lekin july 2022 ke last week se hamari video call pr baat honi suru hui wo v tb jab bhai semester exam dene purnea gaya tha or ghar me hum or mummy the mai dushre room me jake usse baat kiya karti thi. Ush samay ushne mujhe white t shirt jishme A letter likha tha or shorts me dekha tha jishme Mai usse hot or sexy lgi. August me ushne bhut baar mera test liya ki mai apna body part show krti hu ya nhi pr tb maine ek baar v show nhi kiya tha sayad test ish baat ka v tha ki kabhi hum kisi aur ko apne body parts dikhayenge ya nhi. Jab 23 aug ko hum pehli baar mile (after school) computer class join krne ke liye class me sir se baat krne ke baad hum Abhishek ke ghar v gaye aunty se mili khana khayi Abhishek ke saath selfie liya or phir wo humko ghar tak chor diya apne scooty se raaste me thori der ke liye hi shi ushne mera haath pakra or ushne kaha v ki ushka heartbeat tez ho gaya tha thori der ke liye, kuch saman v ushne kharid ke diya. Maine ghar me kisi ko nhi bataya tha ki mai ushke ghar gayi hu. Kuch din baad maine ushke Kehne pr ushko video call pr apne boobs show kr diye pr hum bole v the ki humko tum pr pura vishwash hai isiliye kiye toh wo v Kehne lga ki hum bhut daring hai. Dheere dheere sara body part dikha diye hum ushko video call pr. Ush beech me ushne aesa kuch bola jisse ki humko lga ki wo humko chor dega or hum rone lge toh ushko gussa aaya ki tumko hum pr trust nhi hai. Phir next day sham tak wo maan gaya mera baat hum bole ki hum tum pr ab kabhi doubt nhi karenge. Phir 1 sep ko hamara computer class suru hua tb ushne kuch v nhi kiya na haath pakarta na samne kuch kehta tha pr har raat wo humko bolne lga ki bathroom me jao jaake dikhao humko dekhna hai kabhi kabhi toh hum mana kiye toh wo maan gaya lekin pura sep maine ushke liye yeh sab kiya ghar me sabse chipake wo v isiliye kiya krti thi ki ushka demand hai mujhe puri krni hai. 16 sep ko 1st left cheek kiss kiya ushne maine ishara kiya tha tb wo mere ghar aaya tha or phir 19 sep ko v kiss kiya class ke baad lekin 20 sep ko mai phir gayi thi ushke ghar extra class ka bahana banake or tb hamare beech 1st lip kiss jo ki ushke sofa pr, 1st hug wo v tight niche wale room me, boobs press suck, vaginal kiss, yeh sab niche wale room me or anal sex bathroom me hua. Ek aur plan bana humlog ka 24 sep ko jab ushke ghar pr koi nhi tha tb mai gayi thi ushke saath uske bedroom me phir humne kiya wo sari chiz bs vaginal sex nhi hua kyu ki usko darr rehta tha ki kahin mai pregnant na ho jau. Jab yeh sab ho rha tha toh wo humse puchta v tha ki humko darr nhi ki wo humko dhoka de sakta hai pr hum har baar bole ki nhi hum aesa kyu sochenge humko tumpr pura vishwash hai. Lekin ush waqt tak hum nhi jante thi ki wo humko chor bhi sakta hai. 7 oct ko ushne bola ki ushko breakup krna hai kyu ki wo sure nhi hai ki wo humse shaadi karega ki nhi ushke parents manenge ya nhi ya college life suru hoga toh koi aur pasand aa jayegi toh. Hum ushko yahi puche the ki tum phele kyu nhi soche yeh sab. Jab sab ho gaya tb tum humko chorna chahte ho jab tumhara mann awara bawra tha ki kisi aur ke liye humko chor sakte ho toh nhi suru krte relationship hum bole bhi the hum yeh sab isiliye kiye hai kyu ki humko lga shaadi se phele ho ya baad me shaadi toh hoga hi yahi soch ke kiye the. Hum bhut hi shameless girl hai apne baap ke maut ke baad rangraliya manaye hai. Yahi sab sochne lge the apne body se ghinn aane lga tha humko. Hum bhut rone lge kisi tarah manaye ushko class aane ke liye v wo ana nhi chahta tha. Ushke baad hum roj roya karte the roj koshte the khud ko. Ish beech bhut mentally tension diye ushko bhi pr hum kya karte hum khud bhut pareshan the or roj khud ko kosti thi ki kyu maine isse pyar kiya or kyu yeh sab kiya. Kuch din baad bataya ki mere liye ek ring v order diya tha pr phir apni mummy papa ko hi gift de diya humko breakup hone ke baad bataya jabki hum bole v mere liye tha toh mujhe de dete humko ring bhut pasand hai toh kehne lga ki jish feelings ko leke banwaye the wo nhi rha ab toh fir kyu dete tumko. 31 oct ko ushne bola ki phir se suru krte hai relationship lekin condition lgaya bola ki shaadi ka surety nhi de sakta ki shaadi hoga hi. Hum bole tumhare liye mai saman hu kya ki jab new aayegi toh purane ko hatao. Wo ish baat se hurt hua tb ushne kaha ki mere parents decide karenge ki mera shaadi kisse hoga lekin hum tumhare saath hai. Toh hum maan gaye phir wo mere birthday pr mere ghar aaya tb v hamare beech kiss or hug hua. 10 Nov ko mai ushke ghar gayi thi pr ish baar mere ghar me sabko pta tha lekin mummy ne ek baat v boli thi ki seema me rehna seema langhna nhi lekin hum toh seema phele hi tor chuke hai or phir ish baar v ushne kiss hug apne room me kiya or anal sex niche wale room me anal sex ke liye hum mana v kiye the pr ushka mood tha isiliye kiya. Fir jab sab ho gaya tb bola ki counselling chal rha mai nhi sure hu kya hoga kya nhi mera behaviour v change ho sakta hai career or study ko leke mai bhut serious hu bura mat manna pr career ko leke hum tumko chor v sakte hai pr aesa hoga nhi ushne yeh bola. 14 Nov ko dono computer sir ne Abhishek ko bola bahar me 3 aur ladke ke beech me ki aap log separate raha kijiye renter ilaka hai 50 log 50 tarah ki baatein toh wo bola thik hai sir pr sir se pucha nhi ki kyu wo aesa bol rhe jabki humlog kuch v nhi kiye aesa ki kisi ko koi dikkat ho. Abhishek humko blame krne lga ki tumhare wajah se hum yahan aa rhe nhi toh hum aate v nhi waise v unauthorized tarike se koi kuch v humko bolta hai hum wo jagah nhi jate hai toh wo bolne lga ki wo class chor dega. Humko kuch smaj nhi aa rha tha toh hum bole ki thk hai tb hum chale jate hai apne papa ke pass wahi shi rahega sab pareshani ke jadd hum hi hai toh mere jane ke baad sabki pareshani durr ho jayegi. Toh Phir video call pr wo humse baat kiya or samjhaya ki hum aesa kuch na kare wo aayega class toh hum bole ki excel krke chor denge class kyu ki excel ka need hai humko job me toh wo maan gaya. Lekin 18 Nov ko phir wo Kehne lga ki parosi bol rhe same profession wali se kara dijiye shaadi ishka bhut help karegi hum samaj gaye mera patta phir katne wala hai saath hi yeh bola ki ushka self respect khatam ho chuka hai way of talking badal chuka hai meri wajah se humko bhut bura lga ish baat ka. Ushke baad wo kuch din se video call pr dekh rha tha mere bhai ka behaviour ki wo hum pr gussa kr rha or yeh chiz Abhishek ko pasand nhi thi toh Abhishek ne kaha ki mere bhai ka or ushka kabhi nhi banega Kehne lga ki nafrat ho rha ushko mere bhai se toh mai kyu karu shaadi tumse. Mai manti hu mera bhai mujhe kuch v bolta hai uchi awaz me toh Abhishek ko bura lgta hai or gussa v aata hai ki mera bhai humse aese baat kyu karega. Aaj 22 nov ko keh rha ki Abhishek ki meri baar baar suicide wale baat se nafrat ho rha ushko humse or gussa v aata hai kyu ki jo chiz ke liye wo humko mana kr rha hum wahi kr rhe or keh rhe. Baar baar hum apne bhai ko leke bolte hai yani ushko lgta hai ki hum apne bhai ko support krte hai usse v ushko dikkat hai jabki hum bole v ki mera bhai bura insaan nhi hai bs gusse me humse waise baat krne lgta hai hamesha ka thori hai. Even kehne lga ki wo kuch logo ko bhejwayega mere bhai ko raste me pitwane ke liye kisi tarah se hum manaye ushko ki aesa sab nhi krne. Phir mera periods start hua wo humko kabhi dard me nhi dekh sakta toh video call pr baat hua hamara luckily ush din class v band tha toh hum rest kiye. 3 dec se wo humse bhut ache se baat krne lga or 4 dec ko bola ki wo humse bhut pyar karta hai yeh v bola ki jab wo scene ushko aata hai khayal me toh ushko yahi lgta hai ki agar wo humse shaadi nhi kiya koi aur humko chuyega toh wo kaise bardasht kr sakta hai ush waqt wo hara hua insan mehsus karta hai yeh v bola ki agar ushka shaadi kisi aur ke saath ho v jata hai toh wo humko kisi aur ke saath nhi dekh sakta.18 dec ko mera exam tha kanti me leke wahi gaya scooty pr hum usko kash ke hug kiye jab highway start hua usne khud haath aage karwaya wahan se aane ke baad fir hamare beech sab kuch hua ish baar mere ghar pr dushre room me mummy bhai ke rehte hue v kiye humlog. 24 dec ko wo bhut low feel kr rha tha even khud ko maar daalta agar humse baat nhi kar rha hota yeh v bola ki humko jab v paisa mile hum shaadi ke liye taiyar rahe agar ush waqt hum mana kiye toh wo humse kabhi shaadi nhi karega yeh v bola ki jab jarurat khatam ho jayegi toh wo humse shaadi krke kya karega. 27 ko mere liye ek ring order diya 28 ko pickup kiya or 29 ko pehnaya. 29 or 31 dec ko v mere ghar pr phir sab kuch hua or aaj 31 dec ki raat ko msg me kaha ushne ki boobs sucks or anal sex nhi karega pr kiss or hug jarur hoga. Ushne bola ki hamare beech breakup nhi hua tha bs problem hua tha hamare beech ushne breakup ka ek reason mera blood group bataya. Aaj 1 jan 2023 ko Abhishek ne bola ki wo humse hi shaadi karega. 7th ko mera exam tha wahi kanti toh wo fir mere ghar aaya phir wahi sab hua hamare beech exam ke baad sabse chipa ke or fir 12 ko class cancel ho gaya tha computer ka toh wo laptop leke mere ghar aa gaya kyu ki ushke ghar ke halat shi nhi the or phir ush din v hamare beech sab hua. 20 jan ko lekin wo humse gussa hua kehne lga hum time nhi de sakte ushko toh rishte me rehne ka kya matlab isiliye wo humko chorne ka baat krne lga toh hum raat me suicide attempt kr liye left nerve cut krke pr successful nhi ho paye wo ush pr v naraz hua pr phir sab shi ho gaya hamare beech. Aaj 3 feb ko v wo mere ghar aaya tha class ke baad toh fir hamare beech sab hua lekin mere ek prank krne ki wajah se wo phir naraz ho gaya hai prank suicide se related tha mujhe lga ki mazak me lega lekin wo bola ki tumko yeh sab mazak lgta hai kya or bola ki rishta khatam krte hai. 4 feb ko class ke baad hum ushko bole ki humko feel ho rha ki hum maze ke liye kiye honge yeh sab kyu hai na waise v hum kya hi kiye hai tumhare liye, Hum yeh v bole ki sayad hum ???? wali wala kaam kr rhe wo log toh majburi me krti hai hum toh maze ke liye kiye sayad hum aaye hi the relationship me isiliye. Toh wo bola ki galat feel kr rhi. 6 feb ko wo mere ghar aaya or kehne lga ki Aunty ko bhagalpur wale log nhi pasand or yeh v bola ki Aunty hi decide karegi ki ushka shaadi kisse hoga or unko mera weight nhi pasand na looks or skills v toh hona chahiye ladki ke pass. Wo yeh sab baat tb bola jab kiss,hug or anal sex ho gaya hum ushko itna hi bole tum phele kyu nhi socha yeh sab ya bole humko. Phir toh October wala scene ho rha mere saath wo bola ki dekh humse umeed mat rakh or dosti hai na ushi me khush reh or yeh v bola ki wo cheap level wali thinking mat sochna khud ke liye kabhi bhut kharab lgta hai tum koi saman nhi ho jishka hum istemal kiye toh aesa sab mat socho. 15 feb ko aaya ghar phir sab kuch hua hamare beech kyu ki wo humse durr nhi jaa paa rha tha lekin ush din v mere junior friends ko leke jhagra ho gaya hamare beech ki group bana hai hum ushko bataye nhi fir ushke samne hi block kiye dono ko ushko dikkat ish baat se hai ki jo ladki apne parents ka nhi sochi wo mera kahan se sunegi ya sochegi or wo mera koi help v nhi kr sakti toh dosti rakhne ka kya matlab vicky ka v wahi haal apne life ke problems humse share toh krta hai pr sunta wo v nhi hai. Aur Abhishek ko gussa aa rha tha wo bola ki gusse me kahin haath utha deta isiliye ghar se chala gaya. 23 feb ko v hua ush din toh anal sex aur sab din se jyada der tak hua. Kiss toh jaise normal hai hamare beech aaye din hota rehta hai. 26 feb ko ushke birthday ke din ushke ghar satyanarayana puja me gayi aane waqt me galti ho gaya humse ki ushke mami sabka pair chuye bina hi ghar aa gaye jab raat me msg me baat hua ushke birthday celebration ke baad toh wo bola ki Aunty or Mami bol rhi thi ki pair chuna chahiye tha humko bhut kharab lga or hum rote rote so gaye. Aaj 27 feb ko fir se rishta khatam krne ki baat ki jaa rhi. Hum v gusse me the bhut kuch bol diye ya kahu toh suna diye periods tha mera sayad isiliye itna bol gaye Ki kyu hue physical nhi krna chahiye tha jab kisi ko batana nhi shaadi krna nhi tha toh nhi krna chahiye tha yeh sab isiliye decide kiya ki nhi hoga ab se boobs sucks or anal sex. Aaj 4 march ko wo ghar pr aaya assignment complete krne assignment ho gaya toh hamare beech kiss or hug hua bhut der tak maine usse gudgudi lgake bhut pareshan bhi kiya. Godi pr v baithi mere upar thori der wo leta mere kehne pr hi. Aaj sab kuch shi rha. 6 march ki raat ko ushne bataya ki 27 feb ki raat ko meri wajah se bhut roya isiliye decide kiya meri baato se ki boobs touch ya anal sex nhi hoga hamare beech 6 march 12 baje raat me matlab 7 march ko hi maine rat poison commando kha liya wo black powder tha pura muh me daalke pani pike nigal gayi ushi waqt ulti hua bhai jaga hua hi tha toh ushko lga isabgol piye hai pehli baar usse ho rha. Fir subah me 7 se 8 baar hua toh bhai sprite, bread or dawai le aaya ushke baad ulti ruk gaya. Mummy pareshan ho gayi thi baar baar doctor se bol rhi thi dikhane. Hum mana kar rhe the. Kisi ko kuch v pta nhi chala hai abhi tak.12 march Aaj v meri galti ke wajah se ushko dikkat hua bhut hi nalayak or nihayati bewakoof hai hum jo nhi samjhe ki bina sms ke wo call kiya toh humko baat kr lena chahiye tha or hum manisha se baat krte reh gaye. Aaj lekin wo condition lga rha ki mai manisha ko block kr du or kabhi v usse baat na kare nhi toh wo rishta khatam kar lega humse. Toh hum block kr diye hai manisha ko or bata v diye hai sms krke wo boli hai wo mere saath hai kabhi v kuch v ho hum ushko bata sakte hai. 27 march ko hum ushke ghar gaye the chhath puja me sham wale arag me ushke dadi pariwar ke members se mile ushke cousins sab se toh attachtment v ho gaya tha or ushi din chath wale area me wo humko kiss or hug kiya sham me puja suru hone se phele. Phir raat me wo humko niche le gaya or phir sab kuch hua hamare beech. Phir sabke sone ke baad chhath wale area me kiss hug or anal sex hua pheli baar humlog raat me yeh sab kr rhe the ushke next day hamare beech kuch v nhi hua ushne mujhe mere ghar chor diya. Jish din ghar pr chora ushi aadhi raat me ushne whatsapp pr msg krke bataya ki ghar me sab uhski shaadi ka baat kr rhe jisse ki ushko lgta hai humko sab accept karenge ki nhi lekin ushne yeh v kaha ki ushne mujhe sacche dil se pyar kiya hai kaise rahenge humlog ek dushre ke bina hum dono log roye ush raat kyu ki samaj nhi aa rha tha kya kiya jaye. Phir kuch din baad colony wale milne aaye the toh wo log v shaadi ka baat bolne lge toh wo humko msg kiya ki Sakshi humlog ek ho payenge na. Kyu ki hum ushko bolte hai ki hum tumko kisi aur ke saath kabhi nhi dekh sakte or wo humko bolta hai ki wo humko kisi aur ke saath kabhi nhi dekh sakta. Phir ushne bola ki manisha ko unblock kr de toh maine unblock kr diya pr manisha ko yeh bataye ki Abhishek bola sorry jabki ushne sorry bola nhi tha kyu ki hum jante hai Abhishek ko pta chalega ki hum reason bata diye toh wo hum pr gussa karega isiliye hum dono se chipaye baat ko.11 April ko mujh pr gussa hua ki hum asmita or ushke bf ka chat ka SS kyu padhe or kehne lga tum kisi layak nhi mera baat sunti nhi ho or phir rishta khatam krne ka baat krne lga kisi tarah manaye morning me maan gaya or bola ki hum apna adat sudhare.13 April ko ushke papa ka angioplasty ka operation hua jo ki successful raha 16 april ko wo muz v aa gaya.16 April ko usne mujhe daanta ki mai mummy ko dikhane kyu nhi le jaa rhi jahan wo bol rha dikhane ushki daant se hum ro v diye ushko pta nhi chala. Phir abhi raat me bol rha ki humlog ka call pr baat hoga na raat me hum bole ki mummy abhi mere saath hi soti hai toh Kehne lga ki itna restrictions wo nhi jhel payega ushko gussa aane lgega jab hum continue baat nhi karenge toh phele khud v bola aunty saath soyenge toh kya hua jab ki hum bole the ki mummy hamesha ke liye mere saath soyengi toh tb kuch nhi bola aur ab dikkat ho rha janab ko ushke gusse ke karan hi humko mummy se behas karna para or phir mummy hall me chali gayi or niche sone lgi kisi tarah manaye tb dushre room gayi sone wo v gusse me thi or bolne lgi jab chale jayenge tb rehna akele humko bhut kharab lga hum phir rote rote soye. 24 april aaj achanak hi sab kuch hua humne kuch v plan nhi kiya tha mummy upar owner ke bhai ke ghar ke puja me gayi thi or mera bhai dost ke yahan gaya hua tha or tbhi Abhishek watermelon leke aaya mummy ushko boli thi lane ke liye aur phir jab wo aaya toh Kehne lga Aunty ko bula lo hum mummy ko puja se bula liye jabki aarti hua nhi tha toh mummy humko or ushko akela chorke puja me chali gayi ushke baad mere or Abhishek ke beech sab kuch hua vaginal sex v. Aaj ushne pehli baar apna penis mere vagina me daala thori der hi shi kehne v lga ki tum condom lete reh gayi or phir baki sab v kiya aaj bhut der tak anal sex kiya or phir humlog hug kiye saath lete ushke godi me baithe bhut acha lga. Aaj 25 april ko v kuch hua hai humko bata nhi rha baar baar keh rha hum chor de ushko ushke life me bhut tension hai wo nhi chahta hum tension jhele ushke saath jab puche mann me kya chal rha toh kaha ki sabko chor ke jana ka mann kar rha din me ghar ke log se gussa tha jisse ki pura din gusse me rha ushka tabiyat v kharab hai aaj. 26 april ko kaha ki mann toh karta hai sabko chorke jana ka pr phir tera khayal mann me aata hai toh ruk jate hai or i love you bola. 27 april ko ghar pr aaya tha kyu ki hum hi bulaye the ki milna hai tumse toh aaya toh hug or kiss kiya fir bra kholke boobs press kiya or anal sex krte hue bola ki kabhi kabhi lgta hai ki wo mere saath galat toh nhi kr rha hum bole aesa sab mat socho. Thori der mere kandhe pr seer rakh ke soya bhi. 4th may ko aaya ghar pr kela ka paudha dene toh saath le gaya bank or phir ghar pr aaya toh sab hua means hug, kiss, boobs press or anal sex fir ushke upar hum let gaye kuch der tak waise hi rhe ush din bhai purnea gaya hua tha yeh baat hum Abhishek ko bata chuke the or mummy puja kr rhi thi toh tv wale room me hua yeh sab pehli baar. 6 may ko raat me padhai ko leke daanta ki hum kyu nhi maths banate ya padhai shi se karte or judge v kiya ki hum 2hr ke andar ek maths ka question bhi solve nhi kar payenge jo ki humko bura lga ish baat ka lekin jab question diya or hum bana diye phone call pr tb jaake bola ki wo mera help karega padhai me or calculation fast krne me hum bole thk hai. 7 may ko ushka neet ka exam tha jab sham me aaya toh baat kiye call pr toh achanak bola ki shorts mat pehno age ke according dress pehanna chahiye dignity ghar me bhi maintain karo ghutna se niche tak ka dress pehno ushke ghar me yahi rule follow hota hai yahi culture hai hum bole insaan jishme comfortable feel krta hai wahi pehanna chahiye toh wo bola ki kapra tan dhakne ke kaam aata hai na ki comfort feel karane or ek line bola ki kaise parent's hai permission kaise de dete hai pehanne ke liye toh humko lga mere parents ko leke bol rha humko gussa toh aaya pr kya hi krte jab v behas ho hamesha chorne ka baat karne lagta hai jo hum chahte nhi hai hamesha bolta hai agar gusse me decide kr liya humko chorne ka toh chor dega humko yeh v bhut kharab lgta hai agar tum pyar karte ho toh chorne ka baat kahan se aaya. Jabki hum khud ghutne se niche tak ka dress suru se ghar me pehante aaye hai humko khud ghutne se upar ka dress pasand nhi tha wo toh abhi dress nhi hai ghar me toh shorts pehan rhe nhi toh skirt wo v ghutne se niche tak ka hum pehante hai ya three quarter pants sab pehante hai. 11 or 12 ko ghar aaya toh sirf kiss or hug kiya (boobs or anal nhi) wo 7 ko hi bola tha abse nhi karega tb se zikar v nhi kiya hai. 18 may ko ghar par aaya bhut der ruka boobs ko touch kiya or anal sex kiya saath hi maths padhaya. 19 may yani aaj ek baat pr behas hua ki wo shaadi nhi krna chahta kisi se v kyu ki ushke karan dukh hoga ushki life partner ko ushke koi padosi me ek bhaiya hai wo ushke liye nov me ek ladki ko dhunde the ushke liye wo baat sunte hi mera dimag kharab ho gaya abhi bola ek ladki mili 2nd std ki saath me padhte the dono keh rha bhut der dekhe ushko tb pechane wo ladki samne se aayi baat v ki. Raat me baat hua toh pta chala ki ushke parents ki thinking hi bhut ajeeb hai jishke karan wo shaadi nhi krna chahta ushke parents ushi ko har chiz ke liye galat bolte rehte hai uncle ko yeh lgne lga hai ki mera hi beta mera sara paisa rakh lega koi v ladki aayegi apne pati ka burai kab tak sunegi ushke karan hamesha dukh me rahegi isiliye wo shaadi nhi krne ka soch rha pr agar ushka shaadi kisi aur ke sath hua toh hum suicide kr lenge. 22 may ko ushke or uncle ke beech bhut behas hua jishke karan wo ghar chorkar jana chahta tha toh hum bole ki humko tum apne saath le chalo jahan v jaoge toh wo mana krne lga. Phir uske ek uncle hai chunnu uncle wo uske papa se baat kiye toh sab mamla shant hua. Uncle apne biwi or beta ka baat sunna hi nhi chahte or Aunty se v shi se baat nhi kr rhe unko bs apna bhai or uske pariwar ka jyada chinta hai. Jabki koi v musibat aati hai toh aunty or Abhishek hi sab sambhalte hai unka pariwar walo ko chinta v nhi hai tb v uncle yeh baat nhi samajte hai ki jitna unke takleef me unka beta or wife unke saath rahenge utna koi nhi rahega. 27 ko dca ka certificate lene institute gaye the jab ghar aaye toh sab hua hamare beech periods jaisa lg rha tha start hua nhi tha tb v hum menstrual cup lgaye hue the toh wo baar baar pucha dard nhi na ho rha toh hum bole nhi toh phir anal sex kiya dheere dheere or boobs press or left side wale ko suck kiya jo ki acha v lga humko. Aaj 1 june ko pnb bank gaye the fd karane wo humko rd v bol rha tha karane yeh v bola ki koi month me dikkat hoga toh wo paisa de dega pr hum mana kr diye ghar pr aaye toh bhut der tak hug or kiss kiye ish baar toh hum ushke thigh pr baith ke hug kiye or kiss v or bole v the ki boobs ko press kr dena periods ke time me acha lagta hai pr usko ghar jana tha kaam tha toh bina press kiye ghar chala gaya. Abhi raat me hum soche ki rd online kara lete hai toh usse puche toh gussa ho gaya bola ki jab bank me thi toh tab kyu nhi karai bola ki hum bewakoof hai baddimag wale hai aese dimag ke saath kab tak zindagi chalege sara mood kharab kr di toh hum bole phn rakh do pucha humse rakh de phn toh hum bole jaisa thk lge toh bolne lga ki aaj ke baad kabhi call nhi karega raat me or phir bola ki fd ka bond lane v nhi jayega hum khud jaake laye or kabhi usse financial rae nhi le online offline jo krna hai khud se kare. 2 june ushko bataye the ki raat bhar so nhi paye hai periods ke karan vagina ke pass or pet me dard ho rha toh jab late hua uthne me toh bola ki itne der koi sota hai jabki pta tha ushko tb v yeh bola yeh nhi pucha ki dard kaisa hai hum thk hai ya nhi jab hum bole gusse me sab bhul jaoge toh kahan ha sayad humko v. Uska exam tha toh phn pr baat kiye all the best wish krne ke liye toh sab baat clear ho gaya ab sab shi hai. Wo v sayad isiliye kyu ki bank manager ne kaha ki rd agar mobile banking se kare toh uske liye bank jane ki jarurat nhi hai. 4 june raat me call pr baat karte hue keh rha ki hum apne bhai ko bata de ki hum dono ek dushre se pyar krte hai or shaadi ke baare me v keh rha ki wo chahta hai jald se jald shaadi ho jaye. 5 june ghar pr aaya fd bond dene time spend kiye thori der saath baithe boobs press kiya or anal sex kiya. Or raat me meri help ki sahara ke khilaf complaint file krne me. 7 june fan kharab hai puja room ka electrician nhi aaya hai jishke karan fan thk nhi ho saka toh hum dushre room me nhi so paa rhe ish wajah se v Abhishek ko gussa aa rha or keh rha hum ushke liye important nhi. Aaj ushka tabiyat v bhut kharab hai or ab meri wajah se gusse me hai. 8 june ko keh rha sab khatam mere or mere pariwar ke karan kar rha keh rha mai or mera pariwar jyada kabil hai. Sham me call pr baat hua toh daanta ushka kehna hai ek age hota hai bhai behan ka saath me sone ka bhai ko leke bhi bhut kuch bola or abhi whatsapp me bola ki hum uske attachment ka faida utha rhe yeh soch ke ki wo humko chorega nhi jabki hum toh hamesha darte hai ki kahin wo humko chor na de. Abhi raat me v bol rha ki hum uska faida uthate hai yeh v bola negative me mat lena ya toh tum mere batao ka value nhi krti hai ya phir tumko yeh lgta hai ki hum tumse pyar krte hai isliye tumko chorenge nhi yeh soch ke tum yeh sav karti hai. Hum abhi bhut roye hai ish baat se. Keh rha bhut gusse me hai or yeh v bola ki agar hum dono ka shaadi hua toh taras jayenge hum apni family se milne ke liye milne hi nhi dega mujhe kisi se v uska kehna hai uska or mere bhai ka kabhi banega nhi toh wo shaadi baad chor dega meri family ko jaisa humko lg rha uski baato se. Yeh v bola ki hum kya bacchi hai jo har baar samjhana parega jimmedari lena sikhe hum. 9 june fir mere karan gussa hua or jayaz v hai uska baat hum sunenge nhi toh gussa aayega hi na. Mere karan or meri harkaton ke karan bhut bardasht krta hai wo humko. Ek chiz wo bola jo humko kharab v lga ki hum uske pyar ka faida utha rhe jabki hum kabhi aesa kuch soche v nhi hai ha uski baato ka value nhi dete hai jo ki galat hai pr sayad hum aesa isiliye krta hai kyu ki humko apne mann ka krne ka adat hai aur yeh baat wo nhi samaj rha wo apne jaisa humko banana chahat hai or hum jaise hai waise rehna chahte hai. Abhishek bhut thak gaya hai aakhir kab tak humko samjhate rahega kisi ko v bura lagega jab koi insaan uska kaha hua baat nhi sunega ya manega. Aesa hi rha toh pyar nafrat me badal jayega jo ki hum nhi chahte hai. Bhut hurt kr chuke hai hum ushko meri harkaton ko ushne bhut baar saha hai ab aur pareshan nhi karna chahte isiliye marna chahte hai. Abhishek ko v meri tarah lgta hai ki hum ushke layak nhi isiliye wo kisi ko v hamare baare me nhi batata or hum usko yahi bol rhe karne ki kam se kam apne dosto ko batao hamare baare me. Hum ushke pyar ke sahare zindagi bita lete pr physical hone ke baad nhi or hum ushko kisi aur ke saath nhi dekh sakte. Agar physical nhi v hue hote toh v zindagi jina asan hota mere liye hum tb v kisi aur ke saath shaadi nhi krte pr physical hone ke baad wo humko chor dega apnayega hi nhi toh kaise jiye aur aesa hone ki sambhawna jyada hai. Hum nhi ji payenge ushke bina. Ek toh papa ke jaane ke baad ushme humko apne father figure dikhta hai isiliye hum nhi chahte hai usko khona. Ab mujhe aesa lgta hai ki meri shaadi usse hogi nhi or mai ushke bina reh sakti nhi isiliye mai apni jaan le rhi hu. Meri wajah se Abhishek ne bhut kuch saha hai jo ki mai ab nhi chahti ki wo sahe. Bhagwan se yahi prathna hai ki meri jaisi beti kisi ko na mile. Hum bhut dukh de chuke sabko or meri harkaton se sabko pareshani hoti hai or hum hai ki sudharte nhi hai. Ho sake toh mujhe maaf kar dena aap sabhi log khaskar mummy or bhai I'm really sorry??. Na toh mai ek achi insaan hu na achi beti behan or na dost. I am useless i am good for nothing and i can't do anything in my life.(4)