DAY 1

ALRIGHT ITS STILL MORNING BUT STILL IMMA WRITE. SO TODAY WAS HURTFUL.. KINDA.. IT STARTED WITH ME WAKING UP AND SHIT AND OBVI REMEMBERING AMY. I ACTUALLY HAD A DREAM ABOUT HER. IT WAS LIKE HER GOING TO AIL FOR DRUG DEALING AND YEAH, AS ALWAYS I STARTED TALKING TO HOORIE.. WE TALKED FOR A BIT BEFORE SHE DECIDED TO GET HIGH. ALSO I TALKED A BIT TO THIS NEW GUY CALLED KIARA. SHE WAS COOL.. HER PARENTS ARE FOING THRU DIVORCE AND SHE TOO IS FOINF THRU SHIT BUT ANYWAYS, I TALKED TO DRUGGED HOORIE FOR A MINUTE BEDORE I STARTED TALKING TO ALAN, HER NEW FRIEND AND JUST KINDA SHOUTED AT HIM TO TAKE CARE OF HER AND HE IS LITERALLY A KID LIKE AND A BIT OF SEXIST JUST LIKE HADI. THEN YEA, I TOLD HIM THAT I AM HOORIE'S ONLINE FRIEND AND HE FREAKED OUT AND SOON HOORIE BECAME ALRIGHT.. AND SHE TOLD ME NOT TO TELL ANYONE THAT WE ARE ONLNE FRIENDS WHICH KINDA HURT CUZ IDK I THOUGHT WE WERE BEST FRIENDS. YK HOW YOU HURT WHEN YOU THINK SOMEONE IS VERY CLOSE TO YOU JUST TO FIND OUT THEY ARE NOT AS MUCH AS YOU THOUGHT OR THEY DONT FEEL THE SAME WAY. ANYWAYS, I THOUGHT I WOULD STUDY MATH BUT DIDNT STUDY.. SAW NEVER HAVE I EVER AND DRANK COFFEE AND SHIT. I MIGHT GOT TO SAHO'S HOUSE TODAY CUZ I HAVE TO SEE HER. ITS LIKE 3 PEOPLE WHO KEPT ME ALIVE, SAHO, HOORIE AND AMY.. THREE OF THEM ARE JUST TAKNE AWAY FROM ME AND IT FEEL FUCKIN.. FUCKINF SHIT. LIKE BULLSHIT LIKE I AHTE IT. UGHHH.. I WILL LET YOU KNOW HOW IT GOES. ALSO MY EXAMS.. I DONT THINK I WILL GET 90% SO PROLLY NO PHONE BUT THEN AFTER YARA GOES TO INDIA I WILL BE ALONE SO I SHOULD HAVE A MOBILE.. I REALLY DONT KNOW AT THIS POINT.. I REEEALLLLYYY WANT TO SCORE GOOD MARKKKSSSS