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I don't know why I feel the way I do. People don't understand . or I don't . My attempts are never focused on . I try. I really do . I ruined it , I'm now the enemy . I just feel biting my own flesh off my bones or falling asleep to never wake up. People try to get better but it never works 100 % . I refuse to stack my cups just for a little wind to come and knock it down for that just stop stacking . just stop breathing , just stop existing. hurting hurts to much and if it hurts worse than biting into myself or smacking myself at 16 its never gonna get better . I don't know whats screaming in me and it won't stop but I need it too because I can't go on like this for long . I snapped a while ago and I'm defeated , no more . I need to lay myself self down to sleep a peaceful dream that will never stop .