March 31 2022, Thursday

hi! my name is Brooklyn, this is my very first journal entry. I wanted to start a journal because i need to learn to let some stuff go, and learn that I can't trust some of the people around me. So today is March 31 2022 and it's Thursday, i'm in history class right now at 12:04. i wanted to mainly talk about whats going on with my family then get on with the relationship stuff, so, here we go...my mom used to be in a very toxic unhealthy marriage with a man named Wayne, my used to be step dad. He has done some very unpleasent things to all of us, from the yelling, to the lies coming out of his mouth when he said "i love you" and "i'm sorry" and "it was one time" and "it won't happen again" and "i promise" to the throwing stuff at my mom, to the choking her in her own house, to the belittling my little brother only because he wasn't his son, to the sexually assualting my best friend, don't worry, he's been to jail, but only stayed in there for maybe not even a full month, he just got released a day or two ago, which makes absolutely no freaking sense to me, but whatever. so my dad never liked him because whenever him and my mom were married my mom had a affair with Wayne, so anyway, my dad got a text in December from my mom, mind you, she was in a very toxic unhealthy relationship with a man, so every phone she had was destroyed by him, so she was on a crappy old android that her father sent her, so anyway my dad got a text, and it was a long paragraph, so mind you as well that her 19 day old daughter died, shes in a very abusive marriage, and her sister Brooke killed herself in less than a year, so anyway, almost every word in that paragraph was misspelled and mess up, but she was crying while she sent it also while she was texting on a android phone, so now my dad is totally convinced that shes on drugs, which shes not by the way, shes been clean for years and years, so he hasn't let me see her over a year now, not including my birthday because i don't count that, he let me see her for my birthday weekend and not any more, but also, my dad drinks a lot around me, second hand smokes, and has MUSHROOMS in our house, in the freezer!!! so um that's kind of hypocritical if you ask me, but oh no "i'm the one who wants to go live with my mom because i get my way over there and get whatever i want over there..." um negative ghost rider, i want to go live with her because my dads abusive when he drinks, i need a relationship with my mom, and my dads on drugs....so i don't just wanna go live over there because i "don't get in trouble" i want to live over there because its whats better for me, and because my mom actually excepts me, whenever i got my phone back during the summer, i got it taking away again because i was texting my mom and i didn't ask permission, like excuse me.....i'm sorry, i didn't know i needed permission to talk to my own freaking birth mother! so parden me....anyway, that's all i have time for today, see you later. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee