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hi its me the most useless person i will be talking about yesterday... it was... not the best you could say the worst if you want to i hate myself and i know that. this is the biggest secret of me it is just hating myself so yesterday at like school time i played with my friends i have class friends not like those i hang out with a lot. i played wall from wall with them it was 3 people and me its 4. it was fun until got home so there was this project i had to read a book and write the short version. so i asked the teacher a question even if she answerd it before. and she called me. she said this "darling this gives you to much stress i can take you out if you want to" and i was like no please but my mom talked to her and i was crying my mom said "i will talk to her don't worry miss" and i could hear my teachers voice her voice i knew she was mad. she hang up and my mom started to talk to me and guess what im born in a strict family so there is no such thing as "calm talk" i was crying my mom yelled and i went to my room and closed the door. i cried and cried... i didn't wanna give up so my dad came and i thought he was gonna be mad too but it was the opposite, he was nice and calmed me down. and i understood he said " everybody has there limits of powers and skill" and he talked to me more and i understood. so today i still think about yesterday. today my mom made me have little tears because of her tone in talking. i only cried a little bit. like a few tears dropped from my face. ı went to school and at turkish class the teacher called me and talked to me she said why was i so stressing i gave her the book and she was sad too i asked one of my friends where were they on the book i was keeping track the teacher called me again she gave me the book and told me for 1 week but she knew my mom would be mad but she gave me it i was happy and she said to keep the promise that i will focus on my other studies too. yay but when i got home and told her she yelled at me. i cried and 1 hour later my teacher called and she told my mom everything i knew my mom was mad she called me stupid and i cried but i did not stop on what i was doing. the next day was PE there was PE i had fun normally i talk to like 3 people not a lot now since i like football called soccer. i only watch it. i don't have many friends i do but they don't hang out with me a lot but at least they care. i kept the secret good but one of my friends knew somehow, good news not everything though. school is the only place i feel good and safe.2 days later my mom said to give the book to the teacher again no matter what i tried so hard but she hit me and made me cry so hard. my mom said "if you cry while talking to the teacher i swear i will show you there" she pulled my hair,hit my back too and many more. i went to the teacher and the turkish teacher said " are you out of the project?" i said ... its a secret i can't even show it here its a memory with me only and god then i gav ethe book to her after i went home the turkish teacher called my mom she said she can't take me out of the project. so the next day i got the book. YAY! that was a good day. DAY 2 i wrote... wrote and wrote